Today is my first day back to work since we found out the "news" ... It was casual Friday, so I was glad I would get to wear my jeans to work. Little did I know that my jeans would be a little too snug already!!! It's not that I've gained that much weight, it's just that I feel extremely bloated. Like a baby that needs to be burped or something ... so it's causing my jeans to not fit properly. I was trying to rock them unbuttoned all day, but it was a little obvious with my blouse =/ ... I also still have a horrible migraine (going on day 5 now) and I can't take anything for it anymore, so I guess I'll just have to tough it out for baby =) ...
I find myself talking alot to the baby ... as I stepped out of the elevator this morning, I said, "Ok baby -- we're at work now. Hope we have a good day today!". It's kind of weird to refer to "me" as a "we" but I must say it has a nice ring to it.
I started work early today so that I can leave at 4:30 to attend Mike and Christine's wedding rehearsal dinner in Westlake Village. I couldn't wait for 4:30 to come because my head was driving me crazy. I ended up telling my closest co-worker Toni the good news. She cried!!! I was going to keep it a secret until at least 3 months, but I needed an ally here at work to help me out. I'm really glad I told her becuase it was nice to have someone who knew. She was so happy for me and Mike and kept making sure I was drinking my water and eating the right food.
4:30 finally came and Mike picked me up with his friend Sevan. I ended up napping most of the way becuase my head felt like it was going to explode. The rehearsal dinner was great and it was the first time I couldn't have wine/alcohol. His friends kept wondering why and I used my migraine medication as a reason for not having any wine. Initially, Mike was about to pour me a glass until her remembered last minute that I couldn't have any =) ...
Mike stayed over to be there early for the groom the next day so I ended up driving home solo. When I got home, I started to try on some dresses for the wedding. To my surprise and dismay, none of them fit!!! Again, the bloating was causing clothes not to cooperate =/ ... I couldn't go to the wedding naked, so I told myself I'd have to look for something Saturday morning.
I went to bed that night for the first time not feeling alone. Usually, when Mike is out of town, it takes me a while to fall asleep becuase I feel alone and I start thinking about all kinds of stuff. Tonite however, I felt completely at peace ... I really felt like there were two of us on that bed and it was a wonderful feeling. It just reminded me again that I will be forever connected to Mike and this child of ours. Suddenly, the headache and the bloating didn't seem to matter anymore. I had someone growing inside of me and I was willing to go through anything to make sure baby grows and develops and is always wrapped in my love.
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