Preparing for the big day ...

As the days are getting closer and closer to my Zoe's arrival, I found myself wanting to just pray and be in the presence of our Lord. Yes, I was nervous about my upcoming surgery. There were lots of things that could go wrong and I tried not to think about them, but I had to acknowledge them nonetheless. I figured prayer in front of the blessed sacrament was the cure for my nerves. I wanted to go into Jan. 14th with complete and utter trust in God ... that no matter what happened, it would work out. So it was nice that Jeric and Jay (and Mike the night before) would go with me to pray. We prayed at Holy Trinity a couple of times but ended up at Holy Family's blessed sacrament chapel for the rest of the week. It was a more private and peaceful place and as each day passed, I really did feel more and more at peace. God does amazing things and He certainly helped me a lot in the calming my nerves department. Even though I was feeling contractions throughout the week, I no longer felt scared about what might happened and instead started focusing more on being able to finally meet my Zoe.

Mike came to LA tonight and we had a great dinner at Casa Bianca before praying at the blessed sacrament chapel. It was a great way to prepare ourselves for the next day and for the rest of our lives ... we were both so excited that we'll be able to hold our little girl for the first time. I know Mike was pretty worried about my surgery and I could sense he was more at peace after praying together.

How awesome is our Lord that He gave us the tool of prayer to help us get through any worry or anxiety that we may ever have. I couldn't imagine not having that kind of avenue to turn to when my heart gets heavy or stressed. Praying for the grace to get through certain things is one of the best gifts God gave us and I'm grateful that He loved us enough to give us such a wonderful release.

So I'm going into tomorrow completely ready and free from any worries. I'm thankful that I was able to take the time this week to spend with the Lord ... I know it's helped calm down Zoe's nerves as well! Tomorrow, the game plan is to have my final meal before the surgery, go to mass and check in to the hospital!!! Soooooo excited!!! Hopefully I can sleep tonight!